I’m still struggling with this…to simply and plainly enjoy what’s happening right now. I’ve been seeking intense moments for most of my life, intense work mostly, intense movement, intense anger, intense ambition.
What I realized only recently is that the intensity provided me with some kind of “noise” that covered the more quiet and deep emotions. And why would I do this if I seek intensity? I started seeing that being quiet and accessing those deeper levels was somehow uncomfortable, almost like forbidden terrain.
I like how in this little video (from 1:30), Brené Brown describes how scary joy can be. That we get terrified because what we love or enjoy so much can be taken away any moment and we would like to be prepared for that loss. And it makes a lot of sense to me, after all those years of upholding the myth of being strong and self-sufficient.
I’m looking forward to putting my armor down more and more, to practice gratitude every day and enjoy life!
How about you? What is your way of muting joy? And: what are you really grateful for today?